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1.Life isn’t fair, but it’s still good.

2.When in doubt, just take the next small step. Life is too short to waste time hating anyone.

3.Your job won’t take care of you when you are sick. Your friends and parents will. Stay in touch.

4.Life is too short to waste time hating anyone.

5.Pay off your credit cards every month.

6.You don’t have to win every argument. Agree to disagree.

7.Cry with someone. It’s more healing than crying alone.

8.It’s OK to get angry with God. He can take it.

9.Save for retirement starting with your first paycheck.

10.When it comes to chocolate, resistance is futile.

11.Make peace with your past so it won’t screw up the present.

12.It’s OK to let your children see you cry.

13.Don’t compare your life to others. You have no idea what their journey is about.

14.If a relationship has to be a secret, you shouldn’t be in it.

15.Everything can change in the blink of an eye. But don’t worry; God never blinks.

16.Take a deep breath. It calms the mind.

17.Get rid of anything that isn’t useful, beautiful or joyful.

18.Whatever doesn’t kill you really does make you stronger.

19.It’s never to late to have a happy childhood. But the second one is up to you and no one else.

20.When it comes to going after what you love in life, don’t take no for an answer.

21.Burn the candles, use the nice sheets, wear the fancy lingerie. Don’t save it for a special occasion. Today is special.

22.Over prepare, then go with the flow.

23.Be eccentric now. Don’t wait for old age to wear purple.

24.The most important sex organ is the brain.

25.No one is in charge of your happiness but you.

26.Frame every so-called disaster with these words, “In five years, will this matter?”

27.Always choose life.

28.Forgive everyone everything.

29.What other people think of you is none of your business.

30.Time heals almost everything. Give time time.

31.However good or bad a situation is, it will change.

32.Don’t take yourself so seriously. No one else does.

33.Believe in miracles.

34.God loves you because of who God is, not because of anything you did or didn’t do.

35.Don’t audit life. Show up and make the most of it now.

36.Growing old beats the alternative – dying young.

37.Your children get only one childhood.

38.All that truly matters in the end is that you loved.

39.Get outside every day. Miracles are waiting everywhere.

40.If we all threw our problems in a pile and saw everyone else’s, we’d grab ours back.

41.Envy is a waste of time. You already have all you need.

42.The best is yet to come.

43.No matter how you feel, get up, dress up and show up.

44.Yield.

45.Life isn’t tied with a bow, but it’s still a gift.

Ok, so I have been trying the Online Dating again…well sort of. I am not all that into it, really just seeing if someone interesting contacts me. Ok, so maybe that is bad, but that is just where my head is at right now…as I am NOT feeling my at my best. But I digress.
I have received quite a few emails. Problem is, they are always from either guys I consider to be entirely too old for me, guys in their twenty’s or just plain creepy guys. I am continually contacted from this one guy, who I was at first thinking …ok, I might meet up with him; see how he is in real life as compared to his pictures and description. You see, I have noticed that the guys are never as they describe themselves, save one guy… but that is a whole other post.
So I have here for your consideration one of the emails from the guy who keeps contacting me… I feel it is kinda creepy and … well… the end is inappropriate…I am asking for your opinions, please. Thanks

Theresa

thanks for the email… and it is nice hearing from you… so

I keep wondering what it might take to get to know the woman on the other side of the smile…

so… maybe I can find out a little about the woman being the smile… with a question

what did you ask santa for christmas?

you did not ask me what I asked for (kind of embarrassing sitting on his knee as whispering with all those kids watching) … and in case you were thinking of asking me…

well… it is a secret what I asked for… so you can’t tell anyone…

I asked for a wonderful women who is kind yet powerful, brilliant yet humble, and most of all vulnerable with her feelings yet always insistent on the highest integrity for myself and her…

and one other thing that she has… certain attributes of a bunny….

did I ask for too much…

That is just one…. what are your thoughts?

A Short Poem…

I thought he was going to be the one.

He saw beauty, where I saw none.

I thought he was going to save me from myself.

It was as if he saw me…

Not the person I pretend to be.

What wouldn’t I have done to keep you by my side?

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I have come to the conclusion I am not corporate material. I just do not have the “killer instinct”. I am simply too laid back for this kinda work. I merely want to work someplace with a pleasant atmosphere; Where people are happy to be there. I do not want to be stressed out anymore. I want a job…. somewhere over the rainbow, where troubles melt like lemon drops… that’s where you’ll find me.

It is not that I hate make-up, I just have never really worn it. The most I do is eyeliner and mascara.
betty davis eyes
Occasionally if I am feeling really adventurous I will put on blush. The thing is…I am a face toucher….all day long my hands are on my face…resting my chin on my hand…rubbing my temples from the stress…..etcetera etcetera….I feel I would be constantly wiping it off. Plus, I never really learned how, as my mother wore only eye make-up as well. I don’t know if I would ever change, would start wearing a full face at this stage of my life…but I think it might be fun to learn how….
Please, feel free to leave a comment on your take….

So I am thinking, I really need to make some major life adjustments if I am going to move forward with my life. I have allowed myself to blame my divorce for all that is wrong with my life right now. Although, how I lived my life…or more to say …how I was ALLOWED to live my life while I was married does indeed play a major factor in where I am right now, however, I need to let that go.
It has been almost ten years since my separation and subsequently my divorce. There have been times when I was doing quite well for myself and there have been times where I have been in utter discontent. Lately, it has been the latter of the two.

How I arrived at divorce after 22 years of marriage and six kids… will have to be a prequel post(s).

This morning as the alarm screamed to life, I found myself confused. I thought it was Sunday. So I hit the snooze continuously for 45 minutes. Then I reluctantly arose to get ready to face the day. I showered and prepared a cup of coffee, checked on my email, twitter and FaceBook. As per usual there was nothing much there. One cannot expect much when they themselves have nothing to say.
Breakfast was shared with Bronte and I prepared oatmeal cooked in some milky Chai Tea. Bronte had hers with some sugar and I with cinnamon peanut butter and bananas. I also made a Spirutein Orange/Peach smoothie, yummy. Not sure of how many calories I ate. I wonder if I should really be concerned, as long as I do not over eat and I start to work out. I do not want to be what I was trying to get back to in the beginning of July. I want to be who I am and have someone love me for me…. I think there might be people out there who do, but I am so insecure that I cannot bring myself to believe that.
I did not bring yogurt for my 9:30 snack as my breakfast was so large that I did not feel I would be hungry so soon. I did, however, bring some trail mix and a granola bar, just in case I get hungry before lunch. I never seem to get hungry after lunch…I can always make it to 5:15

I need to go outside and soak up some sun. It is always so very cold in here…and today I cannot deal with the cold.

Is it such a horrible thing that I want to curl up with a man….just to sit on a couch and watch a movie… no sex involved…. Just to, for a lack of better words, snuggle/cuddle. To be in the warmth of a mans arms would be divine right now….

Yumm!! I made myself the best lunch today! I had a veggie bologna sammy with Veganaise, spicy mustard lettuce and pickles. For my side dish I whipped up some yummy cream cheese, powder sugar dip for my strawberries…!!!

Chelsea made spaghetti for dinner last night and of course I over ate! I had a decent size portion of spaghetti, green beans, sauce and cheese, with one piece garlic bread. But what happens is that is all taste so good, that I go back for more! Crap, I ended up eating 3 breads and 2 helpings of spaghetti! I was then so full it hurt! So about an hour later I have strawberries and cream cheese dip! Then I go back for some Whole Soy & Co frozen yogurt! I suck, I have no control at all!! Which would not be so bad, if only I exercised!!!

I need to remember to pay the Cell bill!!!

I had a really good day at work yesterday.

I love to drive fast…that love earned me a speeding ticket…..with an extra added bonus of being late for work….I really need to find an outlet for my “Need for Speed”!!!

OBSERVATIONS FROM THE LOO:
1. I encountered hefty gal while entering the Loo and was slapped in the face with the stank of un-cleanliness…sauntered off to find an alternate Loo…
2. New Loo, cube had pubic hair on the seat! I have taken to doubling up on the ass-gaskets at work…
3. The handicap cube has gal sitting on floor in front of the toilet with purse and makeup bag…WTF?!

I got really hungry…wanted to get something healthy from café, but nothing there, so I settled for tots and makeshift guacamole! Bad bad me!
Well for lunch I only just had a soda as I was still full from the tots!!

1. I went to the market last night and spent monies I did not have to get a few foodies for all. I purchased creamer, cinnamon bread, mini blueberry muffins, Velveeta and cheese, spaghettiOs, blueberries, walnuts and chai tea for the oatmeal I wanna make, yogurt, oh and puffins cereal. Vons did not have the special peanut butter I wanted.

2. Fuck! My allergies flared up something wicked the second I entered work today! I cannot even remember when they have been this bad. My nose is raw and I keep sneezing and sniffling! I almost wanna ask to go home~!

3. I am wicked hungry but this too shall pass!!!

4. I have been thinking a lot about suicide, not sure if it is due to reading Prozac Nation.

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